Crackle, crackle...
The campfire blazes.
Though I still haven't completely left Zone 10, I had to rest.
My body, having been submerged in the spirit world before emerging, was far from its best condition. I couldn't keep moving for long.
I found an abandoned building and entered, gathering some firewood to start a fire.
Salome went out to find something to eat for me (Is there even anything edible in this neighborhood?), and I assigned Mason to guard outside.
"It feels a bit better now..."
The campfire offered more than just warmth.
Light.
Zone 10, with its towering skyscrapers shining like street lamps, provided visibility, but it was essentially engulfed in suffocating darkness.
Rustle, rustle...
The sound, like insects gnawing, echoes from all around. It's the sound of darkness creeping in.
Trying to ignore it, I stare blankly into the fire, then suddenly lift my head.
The dark sky no, since it's below the lake, I should say the dark surface stretches vastly, covering my vision.
Far above this darkness, there's the surface world.
Suddenly, it felt impossibly distant.
It's as if I'm stranded on an unknown alien planet in a broken spaceship. Earth must be beyond this vast cosmos, but still...
'Can I return?'
This isn't just about Crossroad. I rubbed my tired eyes.
I recalled the dream I had just before waking up here.
My life on Earth, as 'RetroAddict.'
I've come a long way from being a mere gamer cooped up in a room. At the same time, it's dizzying.
'Can I really go back?'
This time, it's not a physical question.
Even if I clear all the stages, reach the true ending, seize my wish, and return to my original world,
Would I still be me?
I've worn down so much during this year of gameplay.
I've grown accustomed to Ash's body, face, and voice, become more shameless, and more brutal. I've witnessed countless real deaths.
I went from a player to almost becoming a tyrant, and then, not even a monster.
I'm already a completely different person from the RetroAddict I used to be.
What more will change in me by the end of this game?
There's a famous philosophical question, the 'Ship of Theseus.' It asks, 'If all parts of a ship are replaced, is it still the same ship?'
'When all this ends...'
Once every part of me is replaced.
What will I become, eventually?
"..."
Staring into the campfire, gazing up at the profound darkness, I slowly utter a sentence.
It seems I was conceived in this darkness, grew in it, and still exist within it.
Now I'm floundering, not knowing where to go. Indeed, I feel like the focal point of the century.
That's when it happened.
"Ooh? What's that? A poem?"
Salome returns just in time, holding some kind of fruit in her hands.
Feeling somewhat embarrassed, I fiddled with the firewood and replied,
"...It's an essay. Written by a famous poet."
"Cool, Ash! You look so intellectual!"
"Thanks for the compliment..."
The poet who wrote this essay is great, but I'm just imitating by memorizing and reading it.
Embarrassed, I quickly took the fruit from Salome's hand. The fruit exuded a fresh, crisp aroma.
"How did you find something this fresh here?"
"There's a commander among the legions who enjoys gourmet food. I knew he occupied a farm here and was brewing fruit wine. I sneaked into his base and swiped some."
Being a succubus, it seems she managed not to get caught and pulled it off splendidly. She's more useful than I thought.
I chewed on the fruit, skin and all. Swallowing the juice seemed to revive me a bit.
Silently munching on the fruit next to me, Salome crouched down, resting her chin on her hands, and stared intently at me. Her gaze was a bit too much...
"...What? Why are you staring?"
"Oh~ Just because. You look good eating. Hahaha."
"There's no poison in this, right?"
"Would I do such a thing?! Come on. What do you take me for?"
After I finished the fruit, Salome's eyes sparkled as she moved closer to me.
"Did you enjoy it?"
"Well, yeah. It was good."
"Then you should show some gratitude, shouldn't you?"
"...Thanks?"
"No~ Not just a polite thank you."
I wondered what she was getting at, but Salome came up with an unexpected request.
"Recite another poem! Or sing a song!"
I was taken aback.
"Why would you ask for something like that..."
"But your reading was so good! I want to hear more, more!"
"No way. It's embarrassing, so I won't do it anymore."
"Oh, come on. In your dreams, you used to broadcast quite well when you were... Oh."
Salome stopped mid-sentence and covered her mouth.
"...?"
For a moment, I didn't understand and just blinked blankly, then I belatedly grasped her meaning.
How does she know I 'broadcasted'?
"You, you...! Don't tell me!"
I pointed a trembling finger at Salome.
"Did you read my memories?!"
"Well, it was unavoidable, you see?!"
Salome hurriedly backed away, rolling her large eyes and frantically making excuses.
"I had to be in contact with you to bring you back from the spirit world! And since I'm a succubus! I naturally read the dreams you were having... I guess...?!"
"..."
I shivered in anger. I wondered why I suddenly recalled my entire life on Earth.
This succubus must have used some trick to read my past...!
"Salome, now I have even more reasons to not keep you alive..."
I muttered ominously and stood up. Salome started hiccupping.
"Knowing that I'm not the real Ash, I should kill you to seal your lips..."
I'm a human from another world, possessing the body of this mad prince.
There's nothing good about this monster knowing that fact. Salome must be killed...!
"What does it matter?!"
Then Salome shouted fiercely.
"I didn't like you because you're Ash! Not because you're a prince, or the lord of the city, or because you have money! None of that matters to a monster like me!"
"..."
"I just liked you because you're you!"
Continuing her shameless confession, Salome then looked away and muttered,
"Well, I'm not exactly sure if this is the real feeling, and that's why I'm sticking around you to figure it out... Anyway..."
...It took the wind out of my sails.
I was about to use my 'Absolute Command' to make Salome commit suicide, I sighed and flopped down in front of the fire again. Salome cautiously watched my reaction.
"Aren't you going to kill me?"
"I will... just not now, later..."
Salome was too useful at the moment.
Her death is certain, but not now. I'm too tired to witness another death right now.
As I dejectedly crouched back in front of the fire, Salome crept closer to me again.
"Hehehe."
"...What's so funny?"
"Because it's a secret of yours that no one else in this world knows, only I do."
Salome boasted, thumping her chest.
"Don't worry, we're already accomplices, aren't we? Your secret will definitely remain a secret! I'll take it to my grave!"
I'll dig that grave myself, someday.
Swallowing my words, I just silently nodded. Salome kept giggling happily for some reason.
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